Words

to be strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind
to talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet
to make all your friends feel that there is something in them
to look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true
to think only the best
to work only for the best
to be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own
to forget the mistake of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future
to wear a cheerful countenance at all times
and give every living creature you meet a smile
to give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others
to be too large for worry
too noble for anger
too strong for fear
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble
to think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world
not in loud words
but great deeds

October 2012

Ps : It came tonight with an Esprit watch, two books, a bookmark, and a booklite.

Photo Booth

Starring : Gunadi, Vincent and me

Today

I feel like shit.

Pathetic.

I hate the expectation I made.

I hate the fact that I did not listen to my best friends.
I hate being the one who flirt 
and the only respond I got is hahaha.
I feel so bad when he deleted the photo of us.
I feel so bad when he act like nothing has happened
between us in front of our friends.
I feel so bad for feeling this way.
I feel unwanted.

Just earlier this month,

my best friend ended up her relationship,

she came to my home and cried.

But this afternoon, it was vice versa,

I came to her home, and I cried.
And it wasn't because an ended relationship.
It is because I thought  I had a relationship.
The thing is he never stated that he like me,
or he want to be with me,
or even he love me.
He never mention those kind of thing unless I asked him.
When I asked him about how does he feel about me,
he told me to assume it from the thing he said and did.
He only said that he miss me.
And this is why I hate assuming.
I got it wrong.
I feel so stupid.
It's not even his fault.
It's because I hope too much in this so called relationship.
And I haven't done crying about it.
I am about to have dinner with my best friends.
I guess I will cry even louder.
Because I believe it will makes me feel better.
At time like this, I feel glad because I have my best friends around me.
An listening ears and shoulder to cry on,
that's what I need the most right now.

Note to self : the first question I should ask to the guy I like is his horoscope. if it is Aries then I should think twice. I've been involved with three Aries guy for the past year and they are mean.

Random Post

I've got the book and I win the contest. I laughed and I cried when I read the book. After a year of waiting, it is worth it.

So I asked my friend what does he think of me. Generally. He said that I have an unique personality. I am talkative but ain't annoying. He always expect something new from me when ever we go hang out together. I am not a boring person. I just know him for a year and yet we can talk like we have known each other for a long time. The only thing he complain about is my attitude towards the guy I like. He said that I am too aggressive and I look so desperate. Yes I do admit that. He reminds me that I am a woman and I should be treated like one. 

After a long tired day at work, 

a few hours spent with my best friends 

just simply make my day.

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to my sister
to an idol I will always look up to.
I love you.

14 Years

1998.
full of hope.
through her daily prayer,
a nine years old girl ask God for strength, 
every night
believing that thing will end up well
for her family
after years of struggling 
things started to get better and better
and every time I think of that little girl
I know one thing for sure
I am here now because of her endurance
how she deal with her jealousy towards the others
how she manage to fake a smile
how she can keep her feeling all to herself
and when all become memories
I will always remember her
as a little girl
who didn't get most of the things she wanted
and yet she managed to get through it.

Arrita & Johan

More to Come

waiting
expecting
hoping

Two Kisses for Maddy

http://thelifeofauntiehood.blogspot.com/2011/01/matt-logelin.html
http://thelifeofauntiehood.blogspot.com/2011/01/matt-logelin-part-2.html
http://thelifeofauntiehood.blogspot.com/2011/01/matt-logelin-part-2.html
AND FINALLY
http://www.mattlogelin.com/archives/2012/10/18/book-news-plus-a-podcast-interview/

the waiting is over!!!

Photo Booth

Lunch Time

Partner in crime  of the day : Vincent Kusuma

Venue : Takigawa & Dessert Hut

A Question

He loves me

he loves me not

he loves me

he loves me not

question mark

Through It All

It is true when they said 
boyfriend come and go,
but best friends stay forever.
Me and my best friends,
we've been through it all.
Admire someone.
Attached to someone.
Got our hearts broken.
We share the laughter and the tears.
One day we will look back,
and feel blessed
because we have each other.
Happy birthday to our friendship.
May it grow stronger each day.

Waiting on an Angel

Waiting on an angel
One to carry me home
Hope you come to see me soon
Cause I don't want to go alone
I don' t want to go alone

Now angel won't you come by me
Angel hear my plea
Take my hand lift me up
So that I can fly with thee
So that I can fly with thee

And I'm waiting on an angel
And I know it won' t be long
To find myself a resting place
In my angel's arms
In my angel's arms


Ben Harper

Current Heart Situation

Emotionally unstable.

Thanks to my friends.

They keep telling me things that makes me think twice.

If I do the right thing or not.

They see things from different point of view.

Somehow I glad they are keeping me real.

Give Thanks

A few days ago
I went to an orphanage
I've been there before
several times
and I always got the same feeling
sad and amazed
by those kids
they are full of faith and hope
and I know I learned a lot from them

GOD LOVES HIS CHILDREN